Jumaat, 29 Oktober 2010

kerinduan, kenangan

Terasa kelainan berpuasa tahun ni. Alhamdulillah, ade peningkatan berbanding tahun lalu dari segi menunaikan solat sunat terawih. Alhamdulillah tahun ni penuh solat sunat terawih, kecuali waktu keuzuran. Tahun lalu berterawih sendirian, tahun ni, berjemaah di masjid bersama rakan-rakan dan adik beradik. Alhamdulillah. Tapi, prestasi mengaji Al-Quran merudum. Xdpt tamat. Walau tahun lalu dan terdahulu pun xpernah khatam Al-Quran di bulan ramadhan, tapi bilangan juzuknya lebih banyak berbanding tahun ni. Alhamdulillah, banyak perkara positif berlaku ramadhan tahun ni, sehingga menjemput rasa kerinduan di hati kepada Ramadhan akan datang. Masih lama lagi penantian kerinduan hati ini untuk menunggu Ramadhan akan datang. Entahkan sempat, entahkan tidak. Walau prestasi kerja diamati amatla merudum di bulan ramadhan tahun ni, tetapi aku bersyukur, prestasi keagamaanku bertambah. Alhamdulillah, semua ini dari Allah. Semangat dalam diriku, pada keluargaku, saudara maraku dan sahabat handaiku, semua ku tanamkan rasa dan harapan yang positif. Kerana ku tanam dalam diriku, Allah itu maha Pengampun, Pemurah, Penyayang dan Adil. Ku harap bermula ramadhan ini, banyak pembaharuan positif kepada diri, keluargaku, saudaraku dan juga sahabatku. InsyaAllah, betulkan niat, usaha, amal dan tawakal pada Allah.

i feel so sad

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

I cannot sleep well

I cannot think well

I cannot focus

My health is not well

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

The whisper in my head

The whisper in my heart

Keep on whispering

Develop stress in me..

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

Keep on thinking

What was wrong with me

I cannot sleep well

I cannot think well

I cannot focus

My health is not well

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

I cannot say it

But I cannot hold it

Its hurt me..

I feel so sad..

I feel so disappointed

This keep on pushing me..

No limits

Till I lost..

I feel so sad..

Everyday and everynight

I want, but I cant

I want, but prohibited

Its hurt me..

Because I knew it was wrong..

I feel so sad..

I cant stop this..

I have no energy to control it

My head keep on thinking it

My heart push me, “I want it”.

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

I cannot sleep well

I cannot think well

I cannot focus

My health is not well

I feel so sad..

Through days and nights

The whisper in my head

The whisper in my heart

Keep on whispering

Develop stress in me..

I feel so sad..

Because I knew it was wrong

But I love what was wrong

Oh.. Allah..

Oh.. Allah..

I asked from You..

Show me the way..

Your way..

I knew it was wrong

But I love it..

Oh.. Allah..

I’m stress..

I knew You give it to me..

I knew I have to learnt something from it..

Oh Allah.. its hurt.. I have no energy..

Oh Allah.. there is nothing I can do..

Just ask from You..

Just rely everything on you..

Oh Allah..

Please do hear me..

I afraid I m going astray..

Oh Allah

Please lead me to the way of bless from You

Oh Allah I depend only on You…